I am so at ease

My life has completely changed, once again. Definitely took a turn for the worse, but I knowingly chose that path. Most of my concerns revolve around my work and driving around town. I do feel half dead because the things that stir me are mostly missing. Yet, I also feel like those are the things that used to stir me and I slowly became aware of the necessary changes that I had to make. Maybe it's just my "adult" phase. I have a "good" job, I spend a lot of time with my family, I live at home, I don't go out too much, I don't drink, I don't eat sugar or bread or milk,no caffeine, I take baths for entertainment, I swim 2-3 a week, fitter, happier, more productive. I also live my life repeating the thought that in 4-5 months I will leave for a long time. I depend on that trip to bring me to some kind of turning point. I have to start planning the project that I will be working on during the trip. I am very interested in oral history and I plan on doing some recording of my family and maybe also some written work and photography. I think I will expand that into a whole Bulgaria project, maybe do portraits of people around town and compile it into a website. I plan on starting the trip in April/March and ending in August/September. Most of my time will be spent in Bulgaria, but there will be a a month long tour of Greece, Italy, Spain, Germany to visit family/friends..godfather, Aunt, Andrea, Alina and cousins. It is all still a plan..I am going to NYC in 5 weeks to visit Laure which, I feel, is the first step in my traveling phase.

There is no need to write about how much I don't like my boss and all that stuff.

We bought a new bed..it is our first week sleeping together! Lovely.